| missing you...dependency on electricity... |
[Sep. 15th, 2008|10:41 am] |
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i miss my friends so much.
this hurricane messed up everyone's lives and displaced us into the dark. without power, we are blind. without power, we have to be indoors and off of the streets before 9pm until 6am, daily. without power, we cannot use the internet. without power, we cannot watch television, cable or not...which means no gossip girl. without power, we cannot relax in the luxury of air conditioning. without power, the food spoils. without power, open gas stations are rare to find. without gas, we cannot search for stores that are open to feed the hungry children. without power, most of us cannot go to work. without work, there is no money to be paid. without money, there is no way to earn money to purchase food. without money, there is no way to pay bills that are due monthly regardless of circumstances. it all comes back around to the power source. i never thought that i'd be so dependent on something that we usually take advantage of.
i miss my friends. i miss hanging out with them. i miss talking to them, texting them, working side by side with them, etc. i miss having hot meals. i miss being able to stay in my own bed. i miss seeing the outside for more than 10 minutes a day. i miss showering in my own bathroom!!!!
granted, where i am staying has power, air, internet, and a landline, it's still uncomfortable to be here. there is no tv though because the cable is out and the tvs are wired differently so you can't even see the local networks.
ahh.
why does it have to take so long for power to be restored??? |
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[May. 13th, 2006|09:57 pm] |
My life is practically complete.
I've got everything I could possibly dream of.
A steady job that pays me enough to get by, every gadget imaginable, wonderful friends, family that cares, and a beautiful girlfriend who fits with me perfectly.
I don't need anything else. All I can ask for that would really complete me would be to have my family within walking distance, instead of being 900 miles away.
Other than that, there's really nothing more I need. I've got it all. I'm the luckiest girl alive right now.
Happiness is truly my best friend these days.
May is perfect. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 10th, 2006|11:39 pm] |
I'm extremely happy.
May has been incredible. |
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| Baby it's yours if you want it tonight |
[Mar. 18th, 2006|12:40 am] |
I Wanted To Break Your Heart, But You Have Me Hooked, Lined, And Sinking [March 18th, 2006]
I've been thinking of all the possible ways that I could break this to you
While carefully choosing the right words that'll hold nothing but the truth
And I'm adamant to steer clear of cliche phrases that are commonly overused
So that when it's stripped to the minimum, all that'll remain will be just me and you...
If you're wanting some old fashioned philosophy
Then I'll say that they say that honesty's the best policy
But, honestly, I'd like to beat around the bushes for a bit
Before I'm comfortable enough to come out and admit to it.
I think that I am ready now.
I'll claim addiction as I act appalled
Coping with distance has never been so hard
And I'm too afraid to speak
Too nervous to even think to blink...
I'm anxious to pause the dreaming and finally taste your lips
Hold you close enough to interlock them in a lustfilled kiss
A feeling so powerful sprung from the roots of honest love
Who in their right mind would be reckless enough to mess this up?
So let's just skip the dramatic exhales
'Cus we can't afford to gasp for air
Fast-forward to the beautiful entanglement
Of limbs and fingertips gently brushing through hair.
And it's safe to say you remind me of the constellations
The ones dreamers place all their concentration on
While they gaze into the skies looking for the one that falls
So that they can put the pieces back together... |
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| I hate Hawthorne Heights |
[Mar. 16th, 2006|09:32 pm] |
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I don't know what the hell I'm doing.
Ha, make this entry #1093124308304985309 that I've started with that line!
I'm pretty okay with the whole job situation right now. I mean, I'm hella scared of change, but at the same time, I think I am ready for it. It could be better for me. As of right now, it looks like I am actually getting the long end of the stick too. We'll just have to wait and see.
Jacob is back in town. I'm glad. We were SUPPOSED to go out, but he hasn't called me back yet, that douche. Haha, love him anyway. Maybe he fell asleep. Whatever it is, he better have a good explanation. |
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| She says, "I don't remember love..." |
[Mar. 16th, 2006|12:03 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | 8mm - "Opener" | ] |
First off... holy mother of buda... Wild Things 3 is seriously so hot. SO hot.
Anyway, so I'm just sitting around writing some stuff down, seeing if I can make something look pretty. Oh God... I can't concentrate when two girls are going at it on screen......... *mouth hangs open* I'm surprised I even typed that right.
Work is getting depressing. A trade is in talks, unfortunately and I really don't want to be traded. I sound like I'm playing some sport, but that's what it feels like right now. My whole world is collapsing in front of me. It's sad. I had this whole summer planned out for me and for Kelli, and for home, and now it's all up in the air because of this new development. I better be able to go home or I'm gonna fucking cry. I already have my plane tickets and travel arrangements! Well, now that I'm depressed all over again, I think I'm just gonna end this entry.
PS: LOL@Pete Wentz's penis. |
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| You'll Be Love And I'll Be A Liar |
[Feb. 1st, 2006|11:28 am] |
I've been thinking of all the possible ways that I could break this to you
While carefully choosing the right words that'll hold nothing but the truth
And I'm adamant to steer clear of cliche phrases that are commonly overused
So that when it's stripped to the minimum, all that'll remain will be just me and you...
If you're wanting some old fashioned philosophy
Then I'll say that they say that honesty's the best policy
But, honestly, I'd like to beat around the bushes for a bit
Before I come right out and admit to it.
And it's safe to say you remind me of the constellations
The ones dreamers place all their concentration on
While they gaze into the skies looking for the one that falls
just notes to myself scribbled down thoughts yeah yeah talk about a run on sentence but i dont care cus this is mainly just to keep track of the shit i have put together so far even though that's not even the correct order. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 12th, 2006|06:43 pm] |
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I hold my jealousy close cause it's all mine <3 |
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| Woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be... |
[Dec. 31st, 2005|06:32 pm] |
Nothing else matters to me in this world aside from my family, relatives, my military friends, old friends that I've known years, and Kelli.
Everything else takes a backseat. Yep, even my job. Even my education.... okay everything sans education. Because I definitely hold studying and finishing school on a very high pedastel... (obviously it's been a while. I can't even remember how to spell that word).
But it's all I need in life to be happy. Family/Relatives, My military family, Kelli, and education. :)
AH AND MY XBOX. I heart Gun ♥♥ I'd say Halo but it pisses me off. |
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[Dec. 3rd, 2005|03:09 am] |
im gonna right a for real update when i get back from work in 3 days! or 4, whatever.
i actually gotta start getting ready in like 1 hour 45 minutes but i can't sleep. |
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| It was you who I was thinking of... |
[Nov. 30th, 2005|08:42 pm] |
You drag your feet across the carpet
Announcing your unwanted visits to this room
With cigarette smoke trailing behind you
Like it's some kind of new brand of perfume.
You're oblivious to the world beside you
Cause if it's not about you, then what's the use
Making up stories about battles you weren't alive to see
I guess lying is becoming your favorite disease.
And you don't know it, but I hate the way you laugh |
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| The Girl Next Door |
[Nov. 14th, 2005|11:57 pm] |
I updated my layout yayyayaya.
I just wanted to say I'm obsessed with South of Nowhere.
And by obsessed, I mean... OBSESSED
I can't wait for Ashley and Spencer to hook up on the show. Oh my god, the chemistry between the two... ahahal it gets me all hot and bothered, *laughs* |
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| The novelty is wearing... |
[Oct. 16th, 2005|12:36 am] |
I miss home so much. I'm starting to hate Wyoming as time goes by. I've lived here for almost 7 months now. Time goes by so fast. Just this time last year I was in zero week at Basic Military Training and now I've been in the Air Force for a year and 4 days now. And I'm a Security Response Team Leader. I don't like it lol.
Well as for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs and sit alone and wonder how you're making out... |
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| are we just getting more lost? |
[Oct. 7th, 2005|01:12 pm] |
hey everyone.
i hate journal writing. but i wanted to say hi again like i usually do once every few weeks or so. if you guys don't have me added to messengers you can contact me on aim via the s/n im x unreachable or on msn at ca_comeonover03@hotmail.com |
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| i keep my jealousy close... |
[Aug. 22nd, 2005|06:06 pm] |
this morning was the hugest waste of time EVER.
i got called last night, and told, "oh were you aware you had to be in tomorrow for force on force?" and i said no because really no one fucking told me i had to be in. that, and i had already done my annual training for it. fuck that bullshit. so i got really pissed off and i tried to argue it but he didn't care. i had a feeling he was making me go just to bug me because he gets on my nerves. so it was already 11pm and i had to be up for this shit at 5am.
so i got up at 5:30, got ready in 10, dragged my ass down to the phase building with my gear and my helmet in hand. and then my leadership asks me if i've done it before and i say yes, "i was with henry john and jay. jose and lt killed us. base of fire. hot ass day in the field." so then he tells jewels to go check me out on the system. and yep, there i am... listed on the system as having done it, 7 july. so she told me to go home and go back to sleep, which i gladly did. so while i'm outside getting my stuff together, HE comes up to me and asks, "you get told to go home?" i shake my head cause at this point i'm pissed off at him that if i speak i'll yell. then he asks, "was i wrong?" i shake it again, and he yells "BULLSHIT" and i just roll my eyes and walk off.
i am honestly going to go off on him one of these days. stupid stupid douchebag. |
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| dust is gay |
[Aug. 18th, 2005|06:43 pm] |
*sigh* i failed my test.
(my upgrade from response force member to response force leader test)
i am extremely sad now.
since when do i cry over tests?
(since now)
just a stupid test... hmph
(yeah, right. it was an important test.)
and now i'm stuck as a stupid member
instead of a leader. *sigh*
(not that i want to take on leader responsibilities, but still...)
i take it again, next friday.
(here's to hoping i do better)
*sigh* |
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| punk goes 80s...what? |
[Jul. 13th, 2005|12:37 am] |
So, I'm in lust with someone lol. Like so in lust that I got inspired to write half of a poem...
She bears those eyes that make you feel weak in the knees
The kind of eyes that have you willing to do anything
And maybe it's okay that she always has your full attention
'Cause when she smiles you'll admit to things you'd rather not mention.
She's the type of girl you just don't feel quite confident around
But when she touches you, you'd rather get lost with her and never be found
You kind of like the fact that she makes you think you shouldn't bother
And you couldn't care less that you don't exactly have that much to offer.
Whenever you're around her, you feel this deep connection
So whenever you're apart, you find yourself going in all the wrong directions
And it doesn't matter that she wears Valentine's Day underwear in the month of July
Because you swear that you've never seen anything cuter a day in your life. |
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| ALLISON M. CARTER |
[Jul. 9th, 2005|12:04 am] |
Where are you sweetie?
I miss the hell out of you. It's been months, and I hate it. I want to talk to you so badly. I need your sexy ass to come online, or update your journal, or email me, or text message me, or call me... something! I told Lance if he saw you to tell you I said hi and that I missed you. Hopefully he will remember. Ah, I hope I hear from you soon. <3 I send you love from miles away. <3 <3 <3 ♥
On another note. I leave for Nebraska in 6 hours, yessum. This time for real I'm going to Nebraska. I am so not looking forward to work... like at all. See you guys in a few days! I will be back on Tuesday. |
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